It's been a LOOOOONNNGGGG time since I've updated. There have been extreme ups and extreme downs but I've gotten through it all and lived to type on xanga once again! I'll now update you on the last few months.

Needless to say, i went to Arizona to stay with Derick over Spring Break (this was back in March, mind you) and I had a great time. It was right after midterms and I so badly needed to unwind and relax! It was way too short of a visit but, classes beckoned and I had to return after only a short week with my love. But it was nice anyway because I was there for his birthday. I bought him a ridiculous amount of stuff. Not that I really have the money but just cuz I feel the need to spoil him because I know he doesn't really get much for his birthday. So I made it my mission for the months leading up to his birthday to purchase a hoodie he'd pointed out at a store back in january. The hoodie was non-existent! I searched the internet for hours and days! I had to join ebay just to buy the one existing hoodie of the correct kind and color. It was totally worth it just to see how happy it made him. I also got him two cds and a shirt or two. can't even remember! lol. Way too long since my last substancial post...

So that was my March visit. Then it was back to hit the books for the second half of the semester. My classes were going pretty well but I was def slacking a bit in calc. Always going to class and paying attention but never doing the homework. eeekkk. Other classes were boring. law was good. I learned some interesting stuff and it wasn't too heavy on the workload. computer was a waste of time but whatever. I got my credits so it's all good. I was pretty stressed during the rest of March, April and May. I was definitely getting worn out. I have memories of crying a lot and being pretty unhappy at times. But I also have happy memories, so it all balances out. As finals approached i hit the books like no other. I was either studying, eating or sleeping. My last two finals were my hardest. Calc II and Law.  Calc II was on a Monday so i was glad that I would be able to study for it friday, saturday, and sunday. When i would study for law i just did not know. I stayed at school that weekend (unlike every other weekend of the school year) and I studied non-stop. I went over the whole entire semester's work and the necessaries from the first semester. for all of friday, saturday, and sunday all i did was study. When i went to sleep saturday night i closed my eyes and all i could see were integrals flashing through my head, rolling by before my eyes. It was insane. And yet i woke up the next day and studied more. whenever i thought i was gonna shoot myself i looked through law notes.

When i looked at the calc final i almost burst into tears right then and there. I had studied for days and I felt like i knew nothing! i sat there for two and a half hours (there was no time limit to the test) and filled in whatever i could (which wasn't much) and left. I couldn't go back to my dorm right away because i was too upset. I just found a secluded spot on campus to cry my eyes out. After about 20 minutes of that i collected myself as best i could and went to my room. my roommates asked how it went and i somehow managed an "i dont want to talk about it" before retreating into the bathroom to cry again and finally get it together a little better. I dont know how i studied for Law. somehow i did. not much but i knew it was enough and i didnt any more. That final went well and i was sure of most of my answers.

After finals i was sooo frikkin happy to be done but so stressed over whether i'd failed calc and what to do if i did (which i was sure i had). i dont know when i packed during that week but i'd done most of it and finished up after law and left that evening. i was so happy to be done with school. in the car on the way home all i could think was "I'm FFFFFRRREEEEEEEEE" lol.

I relaxed back into life in Richmond Hill easily. I went to see mrs. Hudon. She was busy ending the school year and her son was getting married in a week or two so we chatted a bit but not too much. My brother had a huge graduation party at the ned of May which was lots of fun. It was a week after my cousin's dad had died. I'd gone to the wake and the funeral and the irish wake afterwards. It was important to me to be there for him and I knew it meant a lot to him that I was there. He's told me since then that he really appreciated my being there. It was tough and i know he's still struggling with it a lot.

Just before June i went to Six Flags with Candace and Jenn. It was loads of fun and i was so happy to see them!! I'm really glad i went and i hope to see them again soon. June began and on the 8th i left for my AWESOMELY LONG trip to AZ. I was there for almost three weeks.I had a wonderful time living with Derick. We spent a lot of time watching World Cup soccer. or Copa Mundial, since we watched almost every game in spanish. He's never watched a game in english cuz he grew up speaking spanish at home. I didn't mind cuz it's A LOT more exciting in spanish, you have no idea. We also went to the movies a bunch of times, went for long drives just talking, i made us breakfast a bunch of days, we did laundry together, went on a fishing trip with friends, rented movies, etc. Just living normal lives enjoying the fact that we were together. It was a really wonderful trip and i didn't want to come home when it ended. but i did. I came home on June 28th.

July has been good and is drawing to an end. I've enjoyed a few good family parties, one a gilgo and one for my cousin Dominic's graduation. i was glad to see my family on both occasions . I saw LoST just the other day and it was awesome. I hope to see them again before school starts. I saw Alana a few weeks ago and we saw Pirates of Caribbean 2.  i loved seeing her and wish i could see her more.

I'm going to North Carolina on august 9th til the 19th roughly, give or take a day or two lol. I'm looking forward to relaxing on the beach and seeing my extended family. I just spent the last two days in Wantagh visiting my fams. I went to the show at Camp Anchor and really enjoyed it. it was adorable. got to spend some times with Sheppy and Marybeth and Aunt Mar so i was glad about that. Now, here i am. FINALLY updating xanga. I know i left a lot out. but thats life. I forget things all the time.

Blackbird Over n Out

Luv ya lots!

Coyote Princess

I deserted xanga... it's true. oh well. i got busy. lol. and by busy i mean lazy.

anyway. I left off in december, not long before christmas, just after i'd moved back home for a month. Well, the days until christmas were spent preparing for christmas/christmas eve. Both were really good. Something about them didn't feel exactly like christmas but what can you do? i was excited about the gift i got for my sister. she loved it, so yay.

I loved seeing my family and had a good time playing with my little cousin Aileen, when she wasn't playing with Matt. That was adorable. It was a great day overall.

I believe i spent the following days with olivia but i can't remember for sure. It was good days of relaxing and being content. It was nice to wind down after last semester.

The next memorable thing i can think of is new years eve. that was good. me n liv chilled drinking some drinks of our own creation (delicious i might add) and being our INSANE selves. as usual, it cant be new years with me n liv without us being seconds away from being caught in THE MOST EMBARRASSING CONDITION ever. but we very narrowly escaped and went on our merry way. Gots lots of INSANE pics to remember it by too. oh lord what you would pay to see those pics hahahaha.

so yea that was new years eve. On new years day i hung out with LoS*T. it was A WE SO ME. lol even though we didn't get any permanent additions to any of our bodies, we did search for ice cream for like half an hour before endin up at coldstone. I got peer-pressured into ordering a love it cuz L got peer-pressured into getting a love it. damn it. lol! but it was delicious. and i love those girls. i can't live without them. yea. after ice cream we watched Hitch in a slight coldstone coma haha.

A few days after that, on the 4th, i went to Arizona. YAAAAAAAYY!!!!! I had a great time. it was sooo nice to be with Derick and be normal. just hang out n be lazy, cuz you know how much i love being lazy... oh yea, and Derick too. It was just like the greatest week n a half ever and i wish i coulda stayed forever. I didnt wanna leave. i wish i could go back. oh wait, i am. haha. i'm sooo going over spring break for like a week. n i just really can't wait. i'm like addicted to this boy, its SICK! haha but i love it anyway.

three year anniversary!! who would have ever thought that day would come? thats how you know we live in a sick, warped world.

Got back to NYC and stopped by RHHS before moving back to school. Saw Mrs. Hudon and ended up staying a lot longer than i'd planned. It was great to see her and catch up with her. Then i moved back to school n started class. Friday i went to the talent show and spent the day in complete denial, which was good. i got to see a whole mess of awesome people, among which were candace, tanya, kamal, sexy X, alana, shad, amanda, sunil, ray n roshni.

Saturday i went to my Uncle Charlie's funeral, cried my eyes out to a ridiculous extent, went with the fam to the restaurant afterwards and then to uncle charlie sr.'s house and stayed there for the remainder of the day. then decided to go to casey's so she wouldn't spend that night alone. we had a pretty good time the next day n then i came back to school.

school school school.. chilled with liv last weekend. that was fun as always, then school this week and that brings us up to speed. i prolly left a lot out but  oh well what do you expect??

Blackbird Over n Out

luv ya lots!

--Coyote Princess

I'm home and I'm so so happy and i just thought everyone should know that